It was so nice to be able to come home to Fielding and try to be a family again, as much as possible. The mother mode in me wanted to kick into action, but the physical part of me said No way. This CNS phase has really kicked my butt, as I have mentioned before and for the first time I saw myself in the mirror as a sick cancer patient and it scared me. I stood there and cried filled with a lot of emotion as to what was going on inside of me. There are days that I feel like I am going crazy, because I just can't concentrate on one thing for more that five min.
I was reminded yesterday at my clinic visit that this is normal. Normal, will it ever be the same as before the cancer, probably not, but we can start getting use to the new normal for awhile.
My dear friend, Brandi Chase, came to spend my "Peg" day with me at the clinic. It is so nice to know someone that has been there and done what you are doing and to give you all the encouragement you need. Plus she knows just how crazy I feel because she has been to that kind of crazy. My emotions are all over the place, but they never were really under control to begin with. Now I have 4 Pegs down, just 11 more to go!
I am so thankful at this time for family and friends! Thanks so much to Chris and Cali Bywater for the make over in the bathroom and giving me one less worry about coming home, plus it looks amazing. Thank you to my Aunt Karen and Linda for cleaning and sanitizing my home for me. You did an amazing job. Thanks to my Sister, Maryann for coming with my Aunt JaDene and making my home feel like fall. And especially thanks to my Dad and Mom for taking care of me to and from the clinic. There are days that I just wish my dad could kiss my cheek and make it all go away, or a great big hug from my mom would do the magic trick, but we are all in this together and will make the best of it.
I have the best family around and know that I am truly blessed. I love each and everyone of you and try to say it more often, because you never know just when another curve ball will be thrown in your direction.
I'm so grateful you are surrounded by such good people who take such good care of you. I'm glad Brandi was with you at the clinic. I think it truly does help to have the support of someone who has actually been through it. Way to go!
ReplyDeleteWell said, Geneice. I wish my dad could be here with a kiss on the cheek to make things better sometimes too. You hit the nail on the head, we never know what is going to come our way! We are all so glad you are home and you are fighting this with such an attitude of gratitude for the blessings among the trials.
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