Friday, October 22, 2010

Oct. 22, 2010

What can I say, I am not very good at keeping this blog updated! I have been to the Bear River Valley Hospital for blood, had a great welcome home party, and enjoyed visits from friends and neighbors. My counts are slow in coming up to start the next consolidation period, so I have been feeling pretty good. We hope that the counts are good for Monday. I want to keep this show on the road in the right direction.
I thank family and friends for all their help these last two weeks, I really appreciate everything because it is hard for me to do, and as most of you know, it is hard for me to ask for help.
I am excited for the new arrival of my little niece, Taylee May, it is so nice to have something good to look forward to and how precious they are, as your fighting for your life, heavenly father sends down a new little angel to brighten your day! Congrats James and Maryann, you make cute babies.
I am excited to go and watch my son, Bracken, play football tonight. Last home ball game and region game of the season, then off to the playoffs! Go get um son!!!
I still have a positive attitude, most of the time and the fight will continue!

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Oct. 9, 2010

I have been feeling so run down and my energy has been nothing. Yesterday I went and had my labs drawn and sure enough, I need blood. I am going to the hospital today to receive blood and I hope that it will give me a little more energy to make it for Monday. Monday starts the next consolidation period, chemo, steroids, and all that fun stuff. I am so glad to be home to recuperate from these next 30 weeks of lots of chemo. There is no place like home and your own recliner chair! My boys are the greatest and take such good care of me. I am loving being spoiled, if you would call it that.
I still have the best chauffeur around and appreciate all that my family does and will do for me. I am truly blessed!

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

October 5, 2010

It was so nice to be able to come home to Fielding and try to be a family again, as much as possible. The mother mode in me wanted to kick into action, but the physical part of me said No way. This CNS phase has really kicked my butt, as I have mentioned before and for the first time I saw myself in the mirror as a sick cancer patient and it scared me. I stood there and cried filled with a lot of emotion as to what was going on inside of me. There are days that I feel like I am going crazy, because I just can't concentrate on one thing for more that five min.
I was reminded yesterday at my clinic visit that this is normal. Normal, will it ever be the same as before the cancer, probably not, but we can start getting use to the new normal for awhile.
My dear friend, Brandi Chase, came to spend my "Peg" day with me at the clinic. It is so nice to know someone that has been there and done what you are doing and to give you all the encouragement you need. Plus she knows just how crazy I feel because she has been to that kind of crazy. My emotions are all over the place, but they never were really under control to begin with. Now I have 4 Pegs down, just 11 more to go!
I am so thankful at this time for family and friends! Thanks so much to Chris and Cali Bywater for the make over in the bathroom and giving me one less worry about coming home, plus it looks amazing. Thank you to my Aunt Karen and Linda for cleaning and sanitizing my home for me. You did an amazing job. Thanks to my Sister, Maryann for coming with my Aunt JaDene and making my home feel like fall. And especially thanks to my Dad and Mom for taking care of me to and from the clinic. There are days that I just wish my dad could kiss my cheek and make it all go away, or a great big hug from my mom would do the magic trick, but we are all in this together and will make the best of it.
I have the best family around and know that I am truly blessed. I love each and everyone of you and try to say it more often, because you never know just when another curve ball will be thrown in your direction.