I have had alot a people ask me to up date my blog, there are days when the computer is the last place I want to be on.
This consolidation period is pure HELL! And I won't even try to sugar coat it for nothing. You have chemotherapy running through your body 24/7. There are days that you fiscally can not get out of bed other than making it to the bathroom. Sometimes I can get to the couch or chair. I have had to let go of the mother in me and become the patient for everyone to take care of. That is not easy, I love my boys and they help me pretty good.
Just some of the things that I deal with are, shaky, even when you walk, not being able to sleep very good, and the fatigue of just getting out of the shower, but the worst part is the nausea.
I had a blessing and in that blessing it reminded me that I need to put my hand in a higher power and trust him with all my heart. Heavenly Father is mindful of me and if I pray and trust in him I will be o.k. My testimony has grown so much in the last 8 months and I know It will continue to grow every day.
I am so thankful for my mom and dad and want them to know how much I love them. Thank you to all of you for the prayers coming my way, they are felt. Maybe more chemo Monday If my counts have recovered from the last one on Monday. Thanks again for all your love and concern. I love you all
